A post on a blog gets old just like the events in one’s life.. They slowly get pushed outside the main page and go into the archives. I just feel helpless thinking that with this or my next post, the saddest post on my blog will move off of my blog’s main page. It is sort of symbolic and terribly sad at the same time.
People die, and time, like some river water gushing over the rocks on the riverbed, just passes over them and keeps pushing the rest of us ahead without giving any choice. It is a strange feeling to keep going without the people who mattered to you a lot. Not exactly easy to put it in words. From time to time, there is this strange realization that you keep shedding off your past and there is really nothing that you can hold on to.
Although I don’t believe such a thing exists on a scientific level, here are some symptoms I can imagine. 
Consider yourself in a mid-life crisis if -
- You are getting nostalgic about the past lately
- You think cutting your hair short makes you look younger
- You think tight T-shirts suit you better
- You get unusually happy when you buy from Forever-21 or American Eagle or Hollister or Abercombie.
- You start believing in stories of young girls dating married old men
- You say you don’t remember your age on your birthday
- You start becoming ambiguous about your age in general – you prefer to use floor() instead of round() on your age. You fight with all your liar’s might to stay below 40.
- …..
My friend Troy has contributed more to this list… his list is in his comment. Thanks Troy for your contribution!
Yesterday I saw a really horrible video about how pigs get tortured on one pig farm. It was just outrageous the way those people treated the poor animals. I am not any animal activist or any kind of activist really. But to see this kind of behavior makes me think about my own non-vegetarianism.
An extreme effect of seeing something like this is really thinking about whether or not, the fact of me being a non-vegetarian, sort of encourages such practices. After all, it is for people like me that those animals get there to be slaughtered, even if not always tortured. I understand the dynamics of mass production and all kinds of practices which could also be considered as cruel to animals even though they legally may not be so. Setting those aside, however, certainly just the high demand should not cause this kind of treatment of animals? What kind of a person gets pleasure out of torturing helpless beings for nothing?
I know I am not in my kindergarten. And I know there are a lot of sick people out there in the world, and you hear about them in the news all the time. You keep ignoring because you can’t do much about it anyway. One also understands as one gets older that no matter what books or our religious leaders might say, life is NEVER fair. Not everybody pays for what he inflicts on someone else. In fact, the laws of modern society treat the guilty more humanely than how the their victims got treated. And I think this imbalance is hopelessly going to grow – the crimes get worse and more horrifying, and the society continues to become more and more considerate to people who committed those crimes rather than being considerate to the people who mercilessly suffered at the hands of these criminals.
Where does that leave animals? At the lowest end of the justice system I guess. Nature allows killing, but for survival and food, not for sadistic pleasure. We are told from our childhood that God is watching over whatever you do.. and in your adult life, you realize that that’s not so true, God is not a policeman.. ‘coz if He was one, such things would never happen. There are clever arguments to counter this conclusion when people say everybody gets what he is destined to get or that this could be the result of their actions in the past life. If you ask me, that is simply not true…
I am sure the justice in this case will be less than 1% fair to what those animals went through. And there is nothing that can change it. Call that destiny if you wish…
One of my most favorite scenes in a movie is the animated sequence in ‘Time Machine’ where the whole world changes around the house – from this point in time to millions of years in the future. You see the house getting older, then collapsing and things just keep happening around it, wars get fought, climates change, landscapes change, new people appear, all kinds of things happen.. all at the same location.
It kinda’ puts certain things in perspective in my opinion. The things we are so passionate about.. I am this, I am that, this is my house, my car, this is where I belong, this land is mine, .. is so short lived. Nobody even knows you existed at that location on earth in a few years. If one just thinks about it, all the great people in the history, walked the same earth that we are walking on now which was walked on by Dinosaurs some millions of years ago. I mean, where does that leave a single human being?
This is bad! I don’t like it. With all the intelligence and arrogance in the world, individually, we are a nobody……. until we learn how to time travel!