Life goes on..
After my last post, it has been difficult to get back to blogging again. But as the title of this post says, Life goes on.. with or without you. And that’s a reality. Things keep going, worlds keep turning, good things, bad things keep happening. Only the beings who can witness these perish.. That’s how it has been for millions of years!
I have heard people going to preachers, religious leaders, teachers to find some peace of mind after they lose someone to death. I am just not that kind of a person, I think. I believe in God and I believe in Good people, but I do not believe anything in between. I can not even start to believe another person telling me about souls and heavens, when he himself is limited to this physical world like me! This whole arrangement of life is so tricky that a person won’t know what’s beyond until he goes there, but then he never comes back to tell it – if there is anything to tell, that is.
So on one hand, I believe, death is so fatal and final that man, in his desperation, could not digest the idea of it being pointless and incomprehensible. He probably could not understand how a person who is so alive and conscious, can just cease to exist suddenly. So he thought about a possible continuation of human life in the form of a soul.
On the other hand, however, it does feel strange that life could be just a chemical reaction. The cells stop getting Oxygen through blood, some chemicals get released and the chemical properties change such that these cells do not respond to any of the chemicals they used to respond to earlier? Love, dreams, joy, memories… are they just chemicals? Is it that plain, simple and boring?
I think this confusion is just beginning to sink into my mind now.. If only I can get this chemical – that I call ‘me’ – out of my system, I will be fine. But then, this ‘I’ is probably a chemical too…! If that can be removed, I will become a prehistoric humanoid who lived like an animal and then, maybe one could comfortably think about everything in terms of chemicals….?!
….but then, who will be there to think about anything??